Thursday, 21 January 2010

Searching for hope

Life has proved to have the struggles, trials, and temptations that were assured to us by Jesus. But just as assuredly as we experience tribulation, we trust in the promises that He "has overcome the world".
The last month has definitely been a challenging one for me. I feel as though I have been hit by some severe blows, and each time I pick myself up, I get knocked down again. But, I'm finding that in the picking up of myself, I am growing stronger. I continually return to the foot of the cross for grace and mercy, seeking wisdom and hope.
More than once I've cried myself to sleep; my eyes blurred by tears, my mind blurred by hopelessness. It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, especially when the tunnel just seems to be getting longer and darker.
Please keep my family in your prayers! The Enemy is definitely attacking and re-attacking. My parents are dealing with multiple stressful situations, and also learning how to lead and pastor a church. (for more specific prayer points please visit my mom's blog: www.imghanaadopt.blogspot.com)
I am also dealing with the many stresses of not having a job, but having just acquired a car (plus insurance and maintenance fees!). I am waiting to hear back from Toni&Guy Hairdressing Academy about the full-ride scholarship that I applied for, and trying not to get anxious about it. I really don't know what I will do if I do not receive the scholarship (a $17,000 loan isn't really an option for me at this point).
I know that God is sovereign, and that He sees "the big picture", but at times I feel so discouraged and alone. I also know that my feelings, though real, do not define reality. I'm holding on (sometimes just barely) to His promises.

And I believe, that He is able to do abundantly more than I could ever ask or imagine. I just have to keep reminding myself. :)


"And, we know that HOPE does NOT disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out by the Holy Spirit who's been given to us."

"My God shall supply all my needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus our Lord."

2 comments:

ajnrileysmommy said...

so encouraging! :)

Kristin Jag said...

Hey Lindsey,
What has happened since this last post? I hope you have heard about the scholarship or have more of an answer now.

Thanks for stopping by my blog. Wasn't that cool about the gloves. I too, was so bummed after standing in the line and them not having any left. You can come and borrow mine when you want ;)