Sometimes I feel like I am all alone, like I am crying out and not being heard. But, recently I find myself just listening. I love days that seem still, when the wind blows and you can hear it in the leaves, and faintly, if you listen closely, you can hear the birds. I experienced one of these days recently while I was at school. I was leaving one building and walking to the next, when I felt a sense of peace come over me, I just stopped for a second, closed my eyes, and listened. In that moment I wished there was someone with me to share in that beauty and joy. I sensed the presence of the Lord about me.
But, I am also in a time of wrestling. I feel like Jacob as he wrestled with God, except I am wrestling about my future; about what God's will in my life is. I read through one of Cassie's blogs about the will of God and walking in it. She put it like this, "so often I get caught up in WHAT IS THE WILL OF GOD ??? I forget to just be in it! The silence is deafening, and the cry of my heart pierces the night, but when I choose to quiet these things and let my PAPA, my ABBA God love me...my heart melts." This so describes how I feel... I am longing to be in the will of God, and to have a heart that hears from Him, but in the quieting of my heart, I sometimes forget what I am listening for. The options I have tend to distract me, and I lose focus of just resting in Him, and waiting for His perfect timing. Because God never messes up... His timing and will is always perfect and how can I even begin to ask that He meet my will, when His is so much greater than mine. Matthew 6:26 says, "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or stow away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable then they?" This just exemplifies the fact that hello, the God of the universe cares even for the small birds, how much more for those who are made in His image! I have no need to be anxious, but must cast all of my anxiety on Him, because He cares for me. His yolk is easy and His burden is light. And as Paige says, "Seek wise council, trust God and smile BIG because He's got it all planned out and MAN I hope it's a wild ride!!!"
My heart still longs to hear His tender voice, but my spirit is at peace because I know that what is said in Jeremiah is true of me too. He has a HOPE and a FUTURE for me, not of destruction, but of prosperity. And I am confident in this, that He who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus (Philippians 1:6).
May His ever tender voice speak to you in new ways, and His peace be like arms about you.
May you find that quiet place.......